In the early 80's through maybe 85 or 86 I used to love the lsd I got in TX. Then in TX and CA the last dozen or so trips were mostly all bad. In retrospect I wasnt listening to the infinite wisdom of our built in intuition. It was telling me there was something seriously wrong with me that I wasnt aware of. I was and I wasnt. I knew but I didnt. And I knew for years I needed to be checked. Finally my man Glenn made me go. Then I knew for sure. And the rest is history. I'm not sure, but I'm pretty certain I won't use lsd again. Maybe a low dose. It just seems like too much for me to handle now. I have friends that get good liquid acid in an eyedrop bottle too. I'm not prepared to walk through the doors of perception with any added help at this time. I already have enough "weird" psychic stuff to think about fairly regularly. I recently had a premonition of a friend having something to do with cancer. A couple days later she told me she was having a mamogram / biopsy or something like this. Now they want her to come back for more tests. I lent her my copy of World Without Cancer. That may seem like not a big deal. But it is. I'm not sure if I could deal with the weight / gravity of reality if I took lsd again. It might be the straw that breaks this camels back. But also, as much as I miss and enjoyed it in the past, I believe that it doesnt have to be a part of your life on a regular basis. That it's okay if it is something that is in the past and not revisited. Just like cocaine. ( I know. Different thing. ) A friend recently told me he can get 8 balls of really good shit for $150. At first I was like "No thanx man. I can't do that shit anymore." Then after about ten minutes I started jonesing and told him I might have a friend that's interested. Thinking I might want to go there. But no. I just can't. It sucks. I used to love coke and wish I could do it still. But it doesnt like me. It's a monster that will surely kill me if I open that door and say "Sure. Come on in and kill me. Yay!"

Sorry for the rant. I'm a bit or a nervous wreck right now. My brother is on the way to the ER as I type. My Dad is taking him. All is well and it's a good day in M-Land. But there is this stuff going on in Atlanta now. Not a good scene.

Okay. I'll shut up now.

PS - Trance turned me onto this badass psytrance site earlier. It's really good. Check it out.

www.ektoplazm.com/section/free-music/

BOINK!!!

Friends and I who had LSD in olden times definitely disagree. I know of the erowid study, and went to a conference where they and most of the other panelists supported their assertion, while some other knowledgeable attendees disagreed. However, 200 mics of most present-day LSD usually produces varying and often unpleasant results, whereas owsley and such was great at that or even higher levels. (Yes, one must also consider set and setting as well as the fact that those who got in on the first magic gram, as the late Peter Stafford referred to it, were a pretty exclusive socio-cultural group.) And it's not only subjective bioassay that seems to support this; Bruce Eisner and several others have written much about acid purity issues. The erowid study is but one such report.