I had a dream one time, where I was on a beach with my friend Gloria. In the distance, we saw a large tower, and it looked interesting and inviting so we walked up to it. Some people in white lab coats met us at the foot of the tower and asked us if we wanted to be in an experiment. We readily agreed and they led us up a very tall wooden spiral staircase and into a room with a wooden floor with two comfortable chairs in it that faced a window overlooking the beach. We sat in the chairs and we people in white lab coats came up to us with eyedroppers and asked us to stick out our tongues. They administered a liquid that was in the droppers and then they told us that what they had given us was a poison that would cause us to die.

"Don't worry though," they said, "You will enjoy it."

Gloria and I looked at each other and shrugged. I said, "Can't go back now," and then I held her hand and we waited.

Then all of a sudden, the window disappeared, the room disappeared and all I could see before me was an Alex Grey-type grid , rising up, and I felt like I was falling into it. I felt the deepest sense of awed peace that I had every felt in my life. I closed my eyes in the dream and still all I could see was the grid, growing taller and taller, bigger and bigger and coming closer and closer. I felt like I was entering it and I felt thankful, and then I woke up in my bed (actually a bed at my folks' house) and I had tears in my eyes. I had never had a dream where I had died before, and it was honestly very beautiful and I was sad that I woke up.

I have never danced with Dimitri, but I have been told that these experiences are somewhat common with him.

I have never really been afraid of death, but ever since that day on the beach, I am not only not afraid of it. I look forward to it. =)