If you think "So what". Why even care...?
You don't care, by the way you are questioning.
If you're question is, "How can I change the situation to my will..?" then you are better of. If you think "So what.." with everything, you are gonna get just that.
And the demons are just that, they don't exist, they are not horned little creatures, they are your own unwillingness, own decandence, own pretentiousness, your own lies, your own deceipt, your own fears and hatred.

I work parttime nightshifts in a factory and I feel great, were before I was unsatisfied, I get along with coworkers. Next to that I work as a freelance illustrator, great job, great friends. You see, mushrooms won't 'add' anything to your life. Everything you see, was always there and will always be. So how do you deal with that..? "So what.." Sure.. if you want to. It's a matter of will, and of your personal goals. If you are not satisfied, you better check yourself before checking out the rest, because you are the first and the last person you face everyday.

There are plenty of reasons to stay home allday everyday stoned on the couch watching television saying "So what.."
Deal with your own politics first. So you can add something to what already is. Something beautiful and crazy.

pointlesly contradicting ones-self is intellectually pessimistic (yet may be a lead in socially to a harmonic solution in a conversation, but you didnt finish your sentence) yet rationalized sometimes with laughter and cognitive dissonance through a medium which does not feel. but i shouldnt have said that.
what you are almost trying to exploit with statements like this is the yin/yang toss up of being compassionate towards all as 'one' by accepting yin the will to nothingness as the source of change and directing the change efficiently with your big Yang.

but the 'value' and almost pessimistic outlook towareds enlightenment as supporting of paradigms and status quo, through factory work is not unfounded; just not efficient, its like thinking as if you were a rich corporate king and you want to use your material 'power' to create autonomous alternative currency barter societies or something but you are not within theis possibility 'NOW'. its almost a heady side effect of being intelligent, overthinking on certain points which pull one emotionally to share, an almost pschological 'tantrum' probably echoed from childhood patterns (in a country of perpetual adolescents this is not an uncommon form of dialogue). what the other poster who said soemthing along the lines of pot; had it right in the sense that what you typed sounds like it came from the archetype of a stoner grandpa intellectual arm chair observer who's body is detereorating and so a downward attitude is reflected metaphoricallly.

everything needs balance and what that wise yet misdirected (winnie the pooh's)*eyore grandpa within us all wants and feels a need for change and its energy, but it needs the FIRE of transformation because its a reflection of the ash of impure flame and action which taints surrounding emotional waters, so instead of passively complaing to another *victim or trying to troll out a conflicted response, actual physical reoreintation through yoga and ayahuasca would ground these lofty thoughts into action and motivation but in the unconverteed form of thought they are the source of your laziness and pain to a certain extent. its like seeing a daemon next to you "conceptually" and being an american 'intellectual' the 'natural' tendency is to project as a peice of the collective slaveship 'which is there' but is also only visible to you because it applys to your personal situation as an ironic dissenting portion of this slaveship. this is only a slaveship to those with-out the yang to leave. without the 'balls' toget their freinds and families to gather in a beautiful place autonomously. but where is the money for this? is someone complaing without effort? in a group of twenty people it is statistically extremely easy to save up 1-2 months of wages to buy and self construct an autonomous natural community. BUt addictions(material,emotional,mental,egotistical,and spiritual arrogance) decrease exponentially (as the opposite of awareness) as a dividend for inneficiencey mental/physical satisfaction and therefore distraction.

in other words there is no reason to complain right now at the end of an erroneous era, just come on through to the other side, there is already a cure for every faulty portion of soceity. There is free energy and advanced super efficient grow techniques as well as mystical healing and awareing technology more powerful than a nuclear reactor with a hundred times the expansion through the divine lens of exaction.

but looking backwards was soO0o. last mercury cycle. mercury has turned direct as of yesterday so lets think mercurially and evolve our mindstuff with the compassion to fit everyone, and the knowledge that the whole picture must be assimilated through time and the sometimes slow eroding of traumatic mental boundary. they made the whole ambigupus concept of karma based on peoples emotional and mental inertia; it was so ambiguous in fact it almost allowed for people to accept being 'dumb' in india without gurus trying to change nations left and right. but all of this can and will be scientifically sped up with all the new re-emerging atlantean an extraterrestrial as well as mystical technology. Lemuria and unspoken devotion and telepathy will meet the ingenuity of efficient communication and light technology of the Atlantean Genius Externalized subjective sciences. AKA the fuel meets the fire and framework, AKA the yin meets the yang, AKA all concepts in action applied with harmony and balance.
all reality can be felt through any sense and all at one. mozart chose to hear the universal music of the spheres, a song in and of every movement. how the same thing is perceived and shared shows the level of ones projected care.

Psychadelics almost completley suck (inneficient) at enlightenment in america they should go to india. ONly the most advanced members of mystery schools in the past took them for a reason LSD is almost treason without a shaman within it without a season to dim it, its fun but repeated distraction is only as enjoyable to the extent one is desensitized to it's pointless monotony; which are visions and fractals. i stopped having *hallucinogenic-visions when i trip a long time ago.

all i am really trying to say is orpheous some of your writing sounds like it is floating through an indecisive bardo of a futile yet sensual sharing of unsure statements.

I love you; but that side of my brain didn't write this alone. dont be afraid to start a dialogue or voice any lack of understanding if it is unclear as humans we are all coming and intending connection from the same place its only our different mental languages that may need re-defining and re-tuning for proper mental computing. I come from a family of perfect manifestations of cat/dog yin yang software engineer and lawyer (persuader translator consistent lawyer and wisdom of infinite routes to acheive desired effect and the echoes of evolving computational inputs and (code) intention sharpning programmer gemini) I may have ranted, but i got high in the process, which reminds me of the month last year where i would always being thinking on that channel of mind vibration even when sleeping and how warm intellectual concept singing is in a sacred and divine context.

activists should meet more; message me if you live in la (everyone who reads this sentence and everyone they know included)

" Sure, if I had the money, I'd love to travel abroad and flood myself with novel and exotic experiences, participate in esoteric ceremony, and learn the unprecedented. That, to me, is authentic "wow," as contrasted with the cheap thrills that pass for MOST people's attempts to escape the television- or computer-shaped box that they tend live in most of the time. "

Hey man, whatever floats your boat, i say. My wows take place in my bedroom with the lights out...
And the next day I feel great knowing I didn't just blow my tuition money travelling to the amazon to join the natives in their consumption of their brand of wow, in their style. wow is where you find it. If you need a lavish ceremony or guru, then maybe that is your path.