In two weeks I'll have another MRI but looks like I have an aggressive form of MS - not good. I at least have a good doctor now. I will do healing attempt before this next MRI with mushrooms. Figure that I do not have much to lose but I cannot say that I go into this with any confidence of success. I will put myself in their hands, in total submission, and ask that they help heal me in the name of love. As I posted earlier with last years "failed" healing attempt with my wife, I have a Blue Whale Spirit Guide who I hope will help also. So I do not go into this alone. The mushrooms have healed me emotionally and spiritually and for this I am literally eternally grateful. I am not afraid of dying but the thought of going through what I recently went through again - or worse, is daunting. I have to at least try. The way I look at it is that if they can heal anything physical, it would have to do with the nervous system. And in my wife's healing attempt last May there was the whole psilocybin fairy thing up and down my spine which I had a notion even then might have to do with MS. Weird stuff.
... I saw the mushroom path stretched out before me and there were dark parts hidden in heavy forest and looking into their shadow made me shiver involuntarily ...
some serious shit, I must say but I have to think that eternity is simply teaching another lesson just the same as a "trip" is teaching a lesson - sometimes this kind of teaching has some teeth, evidently
And thank you Terence Mckenna for having led me to both the recognition and the lessons of eternity.
While overall I am still more grateful than I am bummed, I do feel a little like someone just punched me in the stomach - followig the mushroom path