my direct experience through mushrooms is that what we are at the deepest level is literally beyond articulation - the only way I can try to put it in words is that our "personality" or individuality, like so much "here", is peculiar to this physical existence - or, in Buddhism, it is "illusion" and when I returned to "eternity" the only way to say it is like I am a tiny spark of light that can "go out" and experience - aka "here", and then return and whatever experience I undergo, such experience returns to "the one light" and when I am reunited with this eternity, I still have a core of what we call "self" but there is no separateness, no pain, no beginning, no end .... and so what I think now is that since what we are is already perfect, already love, already bliss then "why" we are here is to learn about non perfect, non love, non bliss, non eternity?

I choose to reject everything I knew, having read much literature, history, science and over my 47 years and virtually all major - and some minor! religious and spiritual constructs - chucked it all!

Then I choose to follow the mushrooms, the voices, this entity that cohabitated my being for three months - it is not "my" belief, it is "the mushroom path" and I personally have no belief other than what I find upon this mushroom path

I think the less we "believe" the better - belief being like a subtle but real veil separating us from here and now